A Hard Day

Today has been the hardest so far.

Today has been a day of challenges, and I have met each one head on. Though I will admit a few times I did feel discouraged.

First thing this morning, I did weigh and was SO SO SO proud of my accomplishment, I was so motivated and driven. I got on the treadmill first thing as I knew we were going to my mother-in-laws house and I would not have time later, and even my treadmill time was good, I walked for 28 minutes and cleared over a mile... I was sure it was going to be a great day!

Then as the day really got started things started ticking away at the motivation and the drive... Things like me telling my husband how much weight I had lost in just two days and him letting me know he had lost more. I have stuck to the program done everything that the doctor has suggested and last night he eats a 12" sub from Subway and has been 'snacking' all along and he loses more than me? I was discouraged.

Then, I shook that off and we left to go to his mom's, all in all we had a good day, and as we were getting ready to leave his father wants us to take him to get wings... Argh! We had called ahead and explained we were not eating, not going out, nothing to do with food and still he asked... Wow! I was discouraged.

Then, we come home to a hungry teenager, and instead of going to eat with him, my darling husband decides to bring in Sonic and Subway again...  I was discouraged.

I am not sure how to get my point across, I sat them both down and asked for specific things, like no take out in the house (this is the third day of my diet and they have brought in take out twice...) I didn't even ask them to not eat out, just that if they were wanting take out to please go to the restaurant and eat it there...

Sometimes I feel like there is a huge lack of respect for me and my feelings, sometimes I feel like my wants and even my needs are not important to either of them. I was discouraged.

I did it through all of that and all of the temptations, I resisted and stuck to it, and have to admit am proud of myself for that feat. I just wish I knew how better to express my feelings to either or both of them.

My final challenge has been that today I have been a little hungry and I have not  been over the last two days, so combine the fight of the hunger with the unwelcomed temptations and thats a double whammy...

But, as I sit here tonight I did it, I made it all the way through a somewhat hellish day and am stronger (even if only a little) for it.